Searching for Hope During Loss

Have you ever lost someone you love? Have you found yourself on this dark, lonely road called grief, searching for hope during loss? From the moment I first heard the words, “your daughter Melanie is deceased” my life as I knew it was forever changed. If you have suffered an unexpected loss you know exactlyContinue reading “Searching for Hope During Loss”

Faith, Gratitude and My Dark Alley Friends

Soon after Melanie died a friend came by to visit. He brought me a beautiful gratitude journal. It was a very sweet gesture but if I’m honest, I thought it was an odd gift to give someone during this time. If I had been one of those cartoon characters on television where a “bubble ofContinue reading “Faith, Gratitude and My Dark Alley Friends”

Trying to Process the Incomprehensible

Typically, the end of May is a time to celebrate the end of school and the beginning of summer. We attend end of school parties, graduations, and summertime vacation plans are made. Instead, this year as many across our nation begin this tradition, there are 21 families in a small town in southern Texas whoseContinue reading “Trying to Process the Incomprehensible”

Anger: How Grief’s Silence Be Deafening

When I began blogging I told myself I wouldn’t post simply to post. If I didn’t have anything worthwhile to share I would simply keep on moving and see how I felt the following week. Well, this week was the first time I actually felt as though I had nothing to give anyone. Instead ofContinue reading “Anger: How Grief’s Silence Be Deafening”

How a Mess Can Become Your Message

Have you ever asked yourself, Why Me? Perhaps you’ve wondered why your life has unfolded like it has. Do you feel as if your life is a mess? Maybe you’ve looked around and it appeared as if everyone around you seemed to be living their best life, except you.    I’m not suggesting we beginContinue reading “How a Mess Can Become Your Message”

Will Our Grief Really Last Forever?

When we lose someone we love I think it’s absolutely natural to feel as though our grief will last forever. I know I have felt that way and have voiced this exact sentiment to others who have lost loved ones. But will our grief really last forever? I believe the answer to that is aContinue reading “Will Our Grief Really Last Forever?”

How Many Children Do You Have?

Sounds like a simple enough question, doesn’t it? Well, to most people it is simple. But, if you’re a parent whose child died this is no longer just a simple question. When walking this grief journey how do you answer the question, “How many children do you have?” How many of you remember the firstContinue reading “How Many Children Do You Have?”

Grieve With Hope: What Does it Mean?

I first heard the term “grieving with hope” when my pastor called the day after Melanie died. I didn’t recall hearing that before, but today I cling to it like my own personal life preserver. Why? Because it means I will see my daughter again. It means that this isn’t the end. I will getContinue reading “Grieve With Hope: What Does it Mean?”

The Encounter

How often have you asked yourself the question, “How did we get here? How did we end up walking this grief journey? Could I have stopped it? Was there something different I could have done?” As I’ve navigated this journey these are just a few of the questions I have often asked myself. In today’sContinue reading “The Encounter”

Grief: Five Little Letters That Change Your Entire Life

As some of you know, I had a 20-year career with Delta Air Lines. It was a wonderful time in my life, and I thoroughly enjoyed this period of my professional career. It afforded our family the opportunity to take trips all over the world and create some beautiful memories. After Melanie ran ahead toContinue reading “Grief: Five Little Letters That Change Your Entire Life”

What is Normal After Child Loss?

As I find myself entering my 3rd year on this grief journey I’ve contemplated this question multiple times. We all strive to be normal, but what exactly does that mean? And what is normal after your child dies? Being normal was also the cry of my girl’s heart. I can so clearly hear Melanie’s voiceContinue reading “What is Normal After Child Loss?”

Are You a Weary Traveler?

Do you sometimes feel like you’re dragging yourself through each day, wondering if you’ll be able to take the next step? If you’ve lost a loved one and find yourself on this road called grief, I’m sure there are moments when you are a weary traveler. Weariness is part of the journey. Being broken isContinue reading “Are You a Weary Traveler?”

Growing Through Grief

Today is the first day of February and I won’t sugar coat it – this month is a tough one for me. It’s the month Melanie ran ahead to heaven and I’m certain that no matter how much time goes by there will never be a day during this month when I don’t reflect backContinue reading “Growing Through Grief”

Forgiveness – The 6th Stage of Grief?

Since Melanie ran ahead to heaven, I’ve had the opportunity to talk with many parents who have lost their children. Many of these losses have been due to the disease of addiction, along with suicide. Regardless of the cause of death, child loss truly is a loss like no other. When Melanie died I can’tContinue reading “Forgiveness – The 6th Stage of Grief?”

It’s Finally Here – Release Day!

Today marks the official release of my book, Beautifully Broken: Finding Hope During Loss! Thank you all so much for your amazing support! There has been such an overwhelming response that Amazon has already sold out of my book and my publisher is having to print more! If you don’t see it available at AmazonContinue reading “It’s Finally Here – Release Day!”

Where’s My Promised Land?

This past week I was saddened to hear about the death of actor, Bob Saget. For those who may not be familiar with Bob, he portrayed the dad on the television series, Full House. I remember watching this show every week, and binge watched every episode again last year with my youngest son. Along withContinue reading “Where’s My Promised Land?”

Judgment and Assumption vs. Understanding

The longer I walk this grief journey the more I realize how difficult it is for people to understand those who grieve. It’s especially hard for some to do this without making their own judgment and assumptions. As this journey continues to unfold I realize there are many who will never understand this road weContinue reading “Judgment and Assumption vs. Understanding”

Longing to See Beautiful Again

In just 3 short days it will be Christmas. I thought my heart was prepared to celebrate my second Christmas without my girl, but that’s simply not the case. Although God continues to heal my broken heart, no matter how much time passes by there really is no preparation to escape the loss we feelContinue reading “Longing to See Beautiful Again”

Christmas Memories

As the days inch closer to December 25th Christmas memories fill my mind and heart. Memories can hurt and cause an ache and missing so deep within, but if we let them memories can also bring joy. If we can choose joyful memories, then slowly glimpses of happiness like sunshine peeking out through the cloudsContinue reading “Christmas Memories”

Bittersweet, Beautiful and Broken

This weekend we celebrated the launch of my book, Beautifully Broken. It was such a mixture of emotions – bittersweet, beautiful and broken all at the same time. We celebrated with friends and family, and the best part of the day was when my oldest son who lives out of state surprised us all by showingContinue reading “Bittersweet, Beautiful and Broken”

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