Ashes and Grace

Questions, questions, and more questions!  I’ve had plenty of them since Melanie went to heaven.  “Is this it? Is this the end of her story?  Am I supposed to be filled with this sadness and grief for the rest of my life? Is this what’s become of me? What now? Surely, there must be someContinue reading “Ashes and Grace”

A Broken Vessel

It’s been said you cannot draw from an empty vessel. True words, my friends! No matter what our specific story, if you’re on this grief journey you are sure to find yourself feeling broken. I’m still feeling a bit beaten up by my grief this week.  My mind understands how and why I’m feeling thisContinue reading “A Broken Vessel”

Remind Me You’re Here

I won’t ask you for reasons … I don’t need all the answers.  These were the words from a song in the night (Job 35:10) that I found myself tapping into my phone at 2:30 this morning. When I got up and plugged them into YouTube up popped the song, Remind Me You’re Here, byContinue reading “Remind Me You’re Here”

Who’s Your Daddy?

Remember the Titans is one of my all-time favorite movies for so many reasons. It’s based on the true story of African American coach Herman Boone, played by Denzel Washington and his attempt to integrate a high school football team in 1970’s Alexandria, VA.  There are so many reasons to love this movie the leastContinue reading “Who’s Your Daddy?”

Soothing the Savage Beast

I can’t believe it’s the beginning of October! Where has the time gone? It’s been the longest, shortest year of my life.  The year started off with such hope, then within a matter of a few weeks my life took a turn I didn’t see coming and changed the course of it forever.  I didn’tContinue reading “Soothing the Savage Beast”

Let the Truth Be Told

Lie number one: You’re supposed to have it all togetherWhen they ask how you’re doing, just smile and tell them, “Never better”Lie number two: Everybody’s life is perfect except yoursSo, keep your messes and your wounds and your secrets safe with you behind closed doorsBut truth be told, the truth is rarely told …I say,Continue reading “Let the Truth Be Told”

Another in the Fire

On these challenging days when my heart is so heavy from missing my girl and the tears are falling down my face I just want to crawl back into the safety of my bed, throwing the covers over my head.  I grow tired of the palpitations of my heart beating like a steel drum. AnxietyContinue reading “Another in the Fire”

King of My Heart

As the Fall begins to usher in cool, crisp mornings I’ve been thinking of years past.  For some reason there is something about the changing of the season that is causing me to become more reflective. Many thoughts and memories have been flooding my mind. Both the good and the challenging. I’m sure some ofContinue reading “King of My Heart”

He Knows

I sit here in the early morning listening to the sound of the wind chimes gently swinging off the back deck.  My Amazon Echo begins playing in the background. This morning she greets me with an email message from my girl, “I was just thinking of you today Mom and wanted to tell you thatContinue reading “He Knows”

Pandemic Grief

Who would have ever imagined in the year 2020 we would have experienced a worldwide pandemic? Wasn’t that something that only happened in the “old days”? I’ve been thinking about the strangeness of this year, specifically, how different it is walking through this grief journey in the middle of a pandemic. Walking through grief isContinue reading “Pandemic Grief”

I Will Remember You

September 11, 2001. A day in history we will never forget. Ask anyone over the age of 13 and I’m certain they will be able to recall every detail of where they were, what they were doing and who they were with. When I heard, my friend Carol and I were meeting for breakfast atContinue reading “I Will Remember You”

Ready or Not…

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been thinking about the upcoming holidays.  A lot. It’s only September yet here I am being inundated by thoughts of Thanksgiving and Christmas.  Under normal circumstances this would not be entirely unusual for me.  I’m a planner.  I’m one of those people who typically buys Christmas presents throughoutContinue reading “Ready or Not…”

Calling All Maskateers

Mask.  A simple 4 letter word, yet today it’s one that can evoke such strong feelings about a simple piece of fabric. We see them everywhere in a myriad of colors and designs, and of course, there is rarely a day that goes by when we don’t hear about the controversy over whether one shouldContinue reading “Calling All Maskateers”

Overdose Awareness Day

This post is dedicated to each of you who have lost a loved one to overdose. I see you and I care. I’ve watched the videos, looked at hundreds of photos, and read countless heartbreaking stories of love, loss and grief. Today many will post pictures of our loved ones on social media, fly beautifulContinue reading “Overdose Awareness Day”

The Sunflower

There is something about the sunflower that makes me happy. It’s upturned face seems surrounded by joy!  Maybe it’s the bright yellow color, or perhaps it just reminds me of those giant yellow smiley faces that were popular in the 70’s! 😊  Melanie’s favorite flower is the sunflower.  I have found it interesting that sinceContinue reading “The Sunflower”

Roller Coaster Ride

There’s no heart you can’t rescueThere’s no war you can’t winNo story so over, it can’t start againNo pain you won’t useNo wall you won’t break throughIt might be too much for me butThere is no impossible with you!~ I AM THEY When I was a teenager, I remember how exciting it was when IContinue reading “Roller Coaster Ride”

A Time For Every Season

This week I attended two funerals. One via Facebook Live and the other in person with only 15 people in attendance, all of us wearing masks and observing social distancing. Both very different but both so honoring of those who are no longer with us. Coincidentally, both people passed away on Saturday, August 15th. HeavenContinue reading “A Time For Every Season”

In the Blink of an Eye

We’ve all heard the saying, “what a difference a day makes.” Well, how much of a difference does 180 days make?  Today marks 6 months, or 180 days, since Melanie has been gone so I’ve found myself pondering that saying.  I’ll admit many things have changed during this time – some good, some bad.  Yes,Continue reading “In the Blink of an Eye”

Broken Pieces

Today my calendar said, “Melanie – 2 yr. celebration.” Although I may not be celebrating with her, I truly believe she is celebrating her full recovery in heaven! When she died, it was truly heaven’s gain. She is now totally free from her struggle and finally at peace. And just like for anyone who lostContinue reading “Broken Pieces”

Back to School

Here in Georgia, we’re getting ready to send our kids back to school.  It’s a hot topic these days no matter what city or state you live in.  Depending on your own personal circumstances, some kids will return to the classroom, others will go with a hybrid schedule and others will begin the year withContinue reading “Back to School”