As the Fall begins to usher in cool, crisp mornings I’ve been thinking of years past. For some reason there is something about the changing of the season that is causing me to become more reflective. Many thoughts and memories have been flooding my mind. Both the good and the challenging. I’m sure some of you may be thinking, “Challenging!!! Girl, I’ve gone through some downright horrible, terrible, bad things in my life.” Yes, I’m sure you have. I have too, but bear with me for a moment.
When I looked up the definition of the word challenge, specifically, “what is the meaning of challenges in life?” it says:
challenge noun (DIFFICULT JOB) – (the situation of being faced with) something that needs great mental or physical effort in order to be done successfully and therefore tests a person’s ability
When Melanie went on to Heaven, I couldn’t think of anything worse that could have happened in my life or to our family. There was no doubt that I would need the greatest amount of physical and mental effort ever required of me if I was going to survive this. To say that walking this grief journey is something that tests my ability is an understatement. On some days my ability to simply put one foot in front of the other is more than I can manage. However, I decided early on that I would not allow the enemy to steal anything further from me and I would meet this challenge head-on. The only way I knew how to fight this battle was spiritually (Ephesians 6: 12 – 13). My faith and trust in God were all that I had left, and I knew in my heart that God can and will turn this around – somehow, someday for His good.
Just like many of you, I’m walking this grief journey day by day. It’s taken my breath away and left me moving like one of the zombies from The Walking Dead. There have been days when I’ve been curled up in a ball on the couch staring out the window, and other days when I’m walking like a warrior. Friends, God is a God of light, love and life! My sister recently reminded me of this – thank you, Jeanne! Our Heavenly Father is Life and He has already taken the keys of death from the enemy. On those days when the challenges try to take over my heart and mind, I turn to the only one who can lift me like no other – The King of My Heart. So it’s no surprise to me that the words to this song have ministered so greatly to my spirit for months. I want to share them with you today. If you’re feeling challenged, depressed, uncertain, scared, lonely, worn out, and wondering where God is please hit the play button and listen to the words of this song. Let the King of My Heart, Jesus, touch your life today. You’ll never be the same.
Let the King of my heart
Be the shadow where I hide
The ransom for my life
Oh He is my Song
You are good, good, oh
Let the King of my heart
Be the wind inside my sails
The anchor in the waves
Oh He is my Song
I LOVE this song!!! Your post also reminded me of something connected to a quote my mentor gave me yesterday — to focus on the promise God has given You, not the problem. This is SO HARD to do when the problems are so big, yet I’ll never stop fighting for that perspective. Thank you for being such a beautiful example of this in my life!!
What a great quote! I know it can be so hard some days, but you are a strong woman of God. Keep fighting and keep the focus on the promise! xx
Your words always bring me comfort. Thank you.
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