How did we get here? That’s a question I’ve often been asked and there are some days I wonder the same thing. I married and had 2 children at a young age, but soon found myself divorced and raising them alone. Growing up together we would often refer to ourselves at The Three Musketeers. As a single mom I worked hard to make ends meet and learned very early on that God was indeed the source of my strength. Jesus was my rock and I learned to trust Him for our every need. Years later when I became an empty nester I remarried and began enjoying a new found freedom. My husband and I both have a love of travel and have been fortunate to visit many beautiful cities and countries in the world. About 4 years into our life together things took a turn for which we were both ill prepared.
Our daughter, Melanie, came to live with us in 2007 and we soon realized she had developed an addiction to prescription medication following a car accident. Over the next 13 years, there would be many ups and downs, as there typically is when a loved one has SUD (Substance Use Disorder). Melanie had periods of sobriety, multiple rehab opportunities, followed by more times of sobriety, but ultimately the disease of addiction claimed her life here on earth. She had been clean and sober for 18 months. On February 19, 2020 my beautiful girl died from an accidental drug overdose.
As the mom of an addict, I always knew this could happen but it’s a thought you hope never becomes reality. It’s the call you expect but hope to never receive. Parents should not outlive their children. Death is hard, and an “out of order” death is not a journey I would wish on anyone. Yet here I am. Although my heart has been broken in ways that is oftentimes indescribable, I have also experienced a peace that truly has surpassed all understanding. This peace comes from my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. If it were not for him, I would not be able to get up each day, and even on those days that are still raw, I look to the rock that is higher than I. I don’t claim to have all the answers, but I hope walking along this journey with me, whatever your struggle may be, will encourage you to reach for the One who heals the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.